I am
feeling like myself once again, a weekend of journaling and rest really helped
a lot. Hopefully there won’t be any more posts like the other day for a while.
I tend
to put a lot of pressure on myself. I am one of those “if you want something
done right do it yourself” type people. So much in fact that I usually become
completely overwhelmed and put myself into a paralyzed “what do I do?!” state.
Here’s a sample of my journal from a few days ago:
“I really need to clean the house
again; nothing is in the right place. I still need to workout though and get a
meal plan in place. He wants to spend the day out today and I have no idea
where I want to go. I never know where to go. I hate going out when I feel so huge.
Nothing fits right anymore. I really should just go workout right now, or maybe
do the dishes since the stupid dishwasher sucks, but I’m already exhausted from
my ten hour day and he wants to spend time together. If we are going out I
really should be getting ready and trying to look nicer for him. I cannot turn
into a frumpy wife.”
See what
I mean? I am crazy.
The fact
is I have to stop doing this to myself. I need to pick one thing and stick with
it and stop feeling bad about the other things. I need to start prioritizing my
goals. Some things are okay to put off and some are not. Some things just need
to be scheduled so that they fit my lifestyle so my lovely husband already
knows that that particular time is meant for working out. Then he won’t feel
left out or ignored and he can actually plan something he wants to do.
Also…and
I hate to admit this…but sometimes it is okay to ask him to help out. Yes I
want to be the super wife, but I know my guy won’t mind at all if I ask him to
help me. I just never do because I want to show him that I am awesome and can
handle it…hah!
Also I
found this on Pinterest and about died…it’s the truth!
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