What I hope you see when you see me....

Acceptance- When you are with me I hope you know you have permission to be completely and utterly yourself. 
No Matter Race, Religion (so long as you aren't trying to convert me), or Gender. Be who you are. 

You wanna bliss out over something that others might consider geeky/weird/basic? You go for it. 

I am not going to judge you for loving Pumpkin Spice Lattes and Uggs.
Love D&D and World of Warcraft, Awesome.
If you prefer quilting or gardening. Sounds great. 
Wanna dress to the nines everyday? Cool. 
Wanna wear leggings and sweaters all winter? You do you.
Are you wearing the same thing today as you did yesterday? Girl I feel you.
Got a set bedtime for your kiddos so that you have time to yourself in the evenings? Sounds good to me. 
Let your kiddo play until they crash? Yep I get that too. 

It takes a lot for me to not accept someone as they are but there are things I won't tolerate. Hate for one. Sexism, Racism, Ignorance, Cruelty....those I cannot and will not accept. 

However if you are just trying to live your life and enjoy the things that make you truly happy then I am so happy for you and accept you for exactly who you are. I hope you know that. 


Happiness- I have always been told I'm a happy person and for the most part I agree. I let myself get overly excited about small things. I laugh a lot and smile pretty much most of the time. To be fair while I've had my trials my life hasn't been bad by any measure so I have a lot to be happy about. However I hope that I can convey that happiness to you. I hope that when I'm laughing and smiling and generally in a good humor that it spreads to you too. This world needs a little happiness and I hope that my inner child, being a four year old that expresses itself loudly and wildly, puts that out into the world.  

Kindness- I like to think that I am kind. I have my moments of snark and sass but for the most part I hope that I am kind and I hope that others see me that way. There isn't much to elaborate on this one...I just hope I am doing my best. 

This blog post is part of the Back to Blogging Linkup that Alyssa started. Check it out and others like it here. 

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Hello 2016

It's a New Year. 

I suppose this is supposed to be the post about resolutions, goals, etc. 

However I only have one real goal for the year. 

To be grateful for the things I have and embrace my happiness. 

2016 is going to be a big year. 

We have a new little one on the way. 

Bobby got the promotion he so rightfully deserved. 

We are so very lucky. 

So I resolve to remember how lucky I am. 

To find my happiness in the life I have. 

To remember how far I've come to reach this point. 

To look forward to all the year has in store for me. 

 

 

 Happy New Year Everyone.  

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Today I am Thirty

Good Morning Everyone,

So I had posted back earlier this year that I was going to do a list of 30 things to do before I'm 30.

Yeah...So to begin with I only posted 15 things....and of those 15 I only did about ten of them.

Whomp Whomp.

However instead of worrying about that list, Today on my big 30th, I thought I would share a different list.

A list of things that I did in my 20's that I am pretty proud to share.

Here we go (in no particular order):

1. I traveled- Jamaica, Bahamas, Orlando, HOGWARTS

  

2. I wrote....a LOT.

3. I adopted dogs...a bunch of dogs!

4. I found my very best friends.

5. I embraced my inner Nerd. 

(At Comic Con...Kyra and my little brother...yes we Cosplay and yes we will be going back every year!)

6. I grew up a little....but not too much.

(Me jumping up and down and screaming at the sight of Hogwarts)

7. I married my high school sweetheart.

8. Just a few months later I was pregnant! 

9. We had a beautiful little girl.

10. Life Went on....and just got sweeter.

So bring it on 30s....I'm Ready For Ya! 

Oh and Merry Christmas Eve to all....and to all a good night!

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Thoughtful Thursday: Best Friends

Good Morning Everyone,

Lately I've been thinking about friendships. It seems like everyone has a best friend, or even a group of best friends. Everyone seems to have that person that they call when things are going awesome and they want to share the news or when things are going south and they need a shoulder to cry on. I keep reading these comments on blogs and on Facebook about "going to see my bestie!" or girls going on trips together, shopping together, meeting for coffee, arranging play dates, or just talking on the phone for hours.

I don't have a best friend.

When I was younger I used to have "best friends" but they never thought of me as their "best friend". I was just a friend, someone to call when you needed help or when your boyfriend dumped you, or you just wanted to go do something without having to pay for it. I called these my best friends but they never were...not really.

I had a close group of girlfriends in high school but once we went to college and right around the time I started dating my now husband...it fell apart. Now I see them posting about things they do together but I'm not in the group anymore....I don't count.

I tried again in college but the ended worse than the first time. Apparently I was a bad friend because I didn't ALWAYS answer the phone and I wasn't ALWAYS available. I had a boyfriend and he and I did spend a lot of time together, but apparently I was also supposed to be in a relationship type thing with the friends....I guess I missed that memo in girl school.

Now I have guy friends and my husband of course....but they don't relate to my girl problems at all. Also I don't have any sisters, only brothers, and while they are super sweet, they don't get the girl problems either.

I do have 2 friends that were in my wedding that I adore...but I know I am not their best friend. They live pretty far away so casual hangouts don't happen, everything has to be planned way in advance. Also they aren't married and don't have any kids so when I do talk to them about things going on in that part of my life I know they are trying to be supportive....but they have no clue what is going on. I know this for a fact because I myself never understood what it was like on this side. I didn't know how hard marriage could be or how sometimes even though you love your child with the fierceness that doesn't seem possible...you wanna just sit and cry because you haven't gotten to talk to an actual adult in two weeks.

So now here I am...almost 30 and I have no best friend. I talk to my mom pretty much every day but that isn't the same thing is it? Also I know she is feeling the same way because she doesn't have a best friend either...and some things you just cannot share between mother and daughter.

I do have my blog and my writing though...and even though I don't always get a comment or feedback from anyone at least I put the feelings out there. Even if it is just into the void.

Do you have a best friend? Or are you more of a solitary sort of person? Feel free to share below.

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A Different Kind of Throwback Thursday

Dear 19 (omg it has been ten years…) year old me, 

I’m writing you this letter because now that ten years have passed I am for sure older than you and though some days it may not seem like it, I am wiser. So as a “wiser” person I thought I would give you a few little tips to help you on your journey. Even though some of them will be too little too late, just roll with it and trust me. 

First and foremost because I know it is the biggest thing you are worried about even though it shouldn’t be. YES you will get married. YES you will have a gorgeous child. That is all I am giving you on that, but since I know it is something that keeps you up at night I thought I would be kind and just let you know now that it all works out in the end. 

Now to the other stuff: 

.........Enjoy yourself. Get out of your dorm room and have some fun! I know that college was a big step. It is scary but you have to get out of your room for more than just class and the amazing baked potatoes in the cafeteria. 

........WORK OUT. For real. Cheerleading is over and you need to supplement the activity. Baked potatoes are not calorie free even if you are eating them in the privacy of your dorm room. 

........Do not get guinea pigs. Just trust me. 

........Don’t worry that you don’t seem to really “click” with the other girls in your dorm. It’s okay. You are going to meet some truly amazing people and they will be your friends for life. Not one of them live with you freshman year. 

........DO NOT fall into the hoodie and sweatpants trap! 

........DO NOT take out student loans. So not worth it. 

........DO call home. A Lot. You will miss them. They will miss you. It will do you good. 

.......Go easy on Mom. She is just trying to do her best for you. You will really appreciate her in the years to come. 

.......Stop stressing out so much about what everyone is thinking. They are not thinking about you.They are 9 out of 10 times thinking about themselves.

.......Smile a lot and often. People love it when you do. 

.......Never be ashamed of your body. It may not look like everyone else, but that is the beauty of it. 

......Write more. You need it now more than ever. Write all your thoughts, hopes, and dreams down. They are powerful.

......Stay up late and play board games during finals week. Stay up all night in fact and then get IHOP at 5am and run home in the pouring rain. It is still one of my best memories. 

......Let your freak flag fly. You are a Fangirl. You love Harry Potter, Movies, Books, Anime, Cosplay, and pretty much all things nerdy. OWN IT. 

......Remember that you are not required to have your whole life figured out right now. Trust me on this because even ten years down the road you won’t have it all figured out….but somehow it all seems perfect anyway. 

.....And one last thing.....Some words to live by....

I hope these tips help. I’m cheering for you girly.

Sincerely,

You.

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Little things that Make Me....Me post

Good Morning Everyone,

So today I thought I would be lazy and copy a post I saw over on Brittney's blog yesterday! Also it was a really hilarious and awesome post so I wanted to do it anyhow! 

Basically it is a list of things that make me....me! I call it the quirky girl post because you know....everyone has those weird quirks that make them who they are! This is what makes me....me! 

1) My brothers actually coined this one. Apparently when I am irritated or just SO. DONE. I do a triple blink. I say nothing, just triple blink at them. They call me out on it all the time. I had no idea that I do it, but apparently it is something I do often enough that they coined a name for it!

2) I turn literally EVERYTHING into a song. Not even kidding. Everything. I actually have a song about for Taco Bell and how my husband always orders everything "lettuce free". Really I have a whole song about it. It is to the tune "Let It Be". Why??? I have no idea just seemed like a good idea at the time.

3) I listen to audio books every night. I mean EVERY NIGHT. I cannot sleep without one going. This has been going on since I was in Junior High. In college I always had headphones and my CD player handy (see how old I am? CD PLAYER) and listened. I once told my best friend. "Dude you can keep talking if you want to, but I'm going to listen to the Hobbit."

4) I used to "group" colors together. Like red with blue and black with purple and green with yellow. Because they were "dating". Also sometimes blue liked being with purple and green had a major crush on red but yeah.....you get the point. I'm crazy.

 

5) Along that same line....I eat my M&Ms by color. I separate them first and then eat the more "boring" colors first saving the best for last. Blue in a normal bag. Lavender in an Easter one.

6) I also WILL NOT drink the last of the ice tea in the pitcher.  I am terrified it will have little "floaty" things in it which I call "dredges". Will not do it.

7) My husband informed me this is a quirk but I think he just thinks it is gross and wants someone else to say so...but I mush my ice cream and cake together. Like mix and mush it until it is all combined in a sort of ice cream/cake soup and eat it with a spoon. Is this weird? My family does it so it doesn't seem weird to me....

8) I can sing the Alphabet backwards. Even drunk.

9) I do not whistle at night. Even to call the dogs in. Superstition.  

10) I hate June bugs. For real. They freak me out something awful. Will not go into a room if they are in there. Will Run and hide.

So there you have it! Now if you are not quickly clicking the X button to get away from my page then I invite you all to join in and add your own quirks! Maybe you are just as weird as me! (Ha ha)

Have a great day lovelies, Tomorrow is Friday!

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Happy Birthday!

 

 Today you are ONE!

My beautiful little girl, Kyra Nicole Uilani, today you are One Year Old. I cannot even begin to put into words how much you have changed our lives for the better since the day you arrived. I never knew this type of love was possible and never knew just how deeply I would love you. You are so amazing and every day I spend with you watching you grow and learn....I feel like my heart might burst at times. You are our life little lady and we wouldn't have it any other way. 

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