So I am seriously on the border
line here. My sanity feels like it has slipped away and the threat of tears is
at level ten. Also I managed to misspell almost every word so far in this blog
as I type and that means that my pregnancy brain is in full effect.
My hormones are out of control.
Not to be dramatic but I have
never been this way before. Even in the really dark places of PMS that can and
do happen I have never been this bi polar.
Need an example? Yeah I got one.
Last night we spend the night tossing
and turning. I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I normally
sleep on my stomach but that is no longer possible while feeling comfortable,
plus my irrational fear of crushing the baby. So since I cannot sleep the way I
always have for like forever…I am tossing and miserable, which means my poor
husband is also miserable.
So he gently suggests at 3a.m.
that he go and sleep on the couch and let me have the bed so that we both can
get some rest.
What was my response? I cry. Like
huge sobbing ugly cry and accuse him of not wanting to be with me.
The poor guy sighs and gives me a
kiss and lies back down next to me for another 30 minutes of misery before I
finally regain my reason and tell him that it is fine and he should go get some
sleep. He didn’t wait for a second chance; the man practically sprinted from
the room. We both managed to get a few hours’ sleep after that, but I will
admit I continued to cry after he left for a good 15 minutes.
This is just one sample of the
crazy that I have become. I won’t even go into the whining or sniping that
occurred while we tried to Christmas shop together yesterday. I think I was
just exhausted after having shopped all day Saturday. Never shop twice in a
weekend. You will regret it. I regret it.
Also I thought it was a good idea
to make brownies at 9pm last night. They were awesome but kept me up way past
my bedtime which may have caused the spontaneous crying. Or else I really am
just losing my mind.
Did any of you other Momma’s have
this issue? I have a few friends that tell me this is normal but maybe they are
just trying to be nice to me since I have turned into a psycho?
(Also I wrote this post on Sunday night and just now am getting it up...I forgot that I wrote it....awesome)
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