Confessions:It is what it is....

I confess that lately I haven't really known what I am going to do with this space. You may or may not have noticed my absence lately but basically I've written about 6 posts in the past 3 months. I'm just not sure what it is I am getting from this blog anymore. Sometimes I come here just as an outlet but lately I have felt paranoid about that. Once you put things on the internet they stay there forever and I worry about putting my heart here and then it being out there for all to see. I do keep a journal but I haven't wanted to write in that either lately. I'm not sure if I am avoiding things or what is going on but I haven't felt like coming here and addressing the things on my mind. 

I confess that honestly I feel like I have fallen into the trap of posting the same posts over and over again and I haven't put much heart into them which is something that I really dislike. I prefer to write things that if they aren't important than at least they are enjoyable and that has not been the case lately and I apologize for that. 

I confess that this probably stems from feeling a little lost and stagnant in my life lately. A lot of plans that I had for myself haven't come to fruition and now I am struggling to figure out what the next step is. 


I confess that after the epicness of a weekend at Planet Comicon it always takes a few days for me to get back to normal. It's like this huge adrenaline rush for three full days and then the sudden end of it is a really abrupt for me. Also being an introvert putting that much energy into getting ready and being out among that many people always drains me. So basically this week has been a bit of a wash because I am still trying to get back to normal. 

I confess that I'm not sure where I am going with this post I am just trying to be honest and put it out there that things are just kind of meh right now. I'm trying and I do love blogging I just feel like I don't have anything to add to the conversation anymore. I'm going to try and at least come here and post something once a week but it it what it is. 

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Confessions: Back to Life

Well I confess that blogging on a schedule went out the window. We came down with an awful sickness. I mean it was terrible. We were all down and out for a week and we still have a bit of the cough lingering. Also by down I mean DOWN. We spent the entire time in bed, coughing and aching and miserable. I wouldn't wish this sickness on anyone. 

I confess that during the time I was down I spent a large chunk of time watching YouTube and found one channel that I was obsessed with, FACTS. Basically it is Irish people trying things and it sounds boring but it is HILARIOUS. 

I confess our Valentine's Day consisted of getting Kyra a gift, giving each other some hilarious but simple cards, and eating Taco Bell. #notsorry #itwasamazing 

I confess we did go out for Chinese on Monday night instead because guess what? No crowds on the day before Valentines. #notapeopleperson 

I confess that I though about blogging a LOT during my sickness and kept meaning to bring my laptop to the bed and type while I sat there in misery but honestly I just felt so completely shite that I never did it. 

I confess that I've been debating changing up the blog layout lately as well. I like this layout but I feel like it's really impersonal and just kind of ....blah? I dunno, maybe I'm just ready for a change. 

That's it for today. Hope you all are having a good one and if not well, at least it is Wednesday.

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Confessions: Um Bye January....

I confess I am overly happy at the above image. It's so tropical and fun. Sure it doesn't really have anything to do with confessions but I still really like it!  

I confess that I was both surprised and a little relieved when I remembered that today was the first of February. It's been a topsy turvy month and while I don't think that it will get all that much better just because it is now February I'm still relieved.

I confess that this past weekend turned out to be so much more fun than I could have expected. It was all unplanned and maybe that was why it was so amazing.

I confess this is exactly my life. I have a huge stack of "To be Read".

I confess that I have thrown my knitting needles down more times than I can count this week out of frustration. WHY IS DOUBLE KNITTING SO HARD?!

I confess I usually respond to comments using the voice translate on my phone because I am lazy. #sorrynotsorry #somanyautocorrectfails

So what are you confessing today?

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Confession: I forgot it was Wednesday

The title basically sums up my mindset for the week. No clue as to what day it is or what time it is, however it is apparently Wednesday and that means confession day and maybe if I blog I will get it together. 

1. Last week I took Kyra in to a new doctor since we changed insurance plans and had to find a new primary care person. I am so happy that Kyra did awesome at her appointment and even more awesome is that this doctor is literally five minutes away. I really liked him as he was really great with Kyra and she seemed to like him as well. She even had the entire nurses station laughing when we left because she exclaimed "That was FUN Mama!" As you can gather she didn't have to get a shot. (This is not a confession...this is just what happened....see I'm a mess.)

2.  I confess that I am never one to pass up a vacation. Even just a one night thing. After the doctor appointment Robert had to go to Omaha and asked if Kyra and I wanted to tag along and stay the night at the hotel with him I packed the bags and was ready to go! Our room ended up being upgraded to a suite and it was AWESOME. 

I have no idea what she is doing.

3. I confess we mostly spent our time at the pool because that is Kyra's favorite thing to do, but she also really enjoyed the cable TV. I enjoyed the massive bed. 

4. I confess I will never be as on point with my decorations as my Mom. 

5. I confess I am really excited to show you all the chalkboard at Mom's house that we have been decorating for each holiday but it isn't done yet and I don't want to spoil it. 

6. I confess that I filed our taxes this morning and it feels SO GOOD. #givememymoney

 

7. I confess that I took a leisurely bath this morning because Kyra was still asleep and the house was quiet and that NEVER happens in the evenings around here. #becauseI'mworthit

8. I confess the only way to make sure that I am drinking enough water I have to drink through a straw. I have no idea why it tricks my brain into finishing off all that water but it does. #Ihavetopeeeveryfiveminutes

 
Short and sweet again this week. Have a good Wednesday Everyone.

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First Confessions of the New Year

1. Books have been on point this month! Seriously I have powered through five books this month and four of the five have been amazing. I am so happy that I am ahead on reading because last year I felt like I kept putting reading off for other (non important) things and this year I am trying to make sure that I am reading and taking time for myself to just sit quietly. 

2. I have a cart full of stuff from Sephora. I have not purchased any of it yet but I come back daily and look at my cart and just kind of wistfully sigh. I do have a gift card but I am terrified that I will end up buying something and then something EVEN BETTER will come out and I will miss out....which is ridiculous. I am ridiculous. 

3. I also really want this whole collection from Sinful Colors. I adore Kandee Johnson. 

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4. I have been looking into forms of passive income to help out. It is just so overwhelming. I honestly go between suggestions that are possibly doable to the same run of the mill junk. I just want to find a way of making a small amount per month so that I can start putting money away for savings and the occasional splurge. This blog makes me 0 dollars a month. I'm not a "popular" blogger and honestly that is okay but I do wish I could be a "successful" blogger who makes this a full time job. The issue I have found however is that each time I look into the blogs that make money it is always the same generic nonsense that I don't even read. I actually read one blog that was like "You aren't going to make money if you just talk about your dog and your kids. People want to know how to lose weight, where to shop, blah blah..." and I cringed. I just can't seem to get behind that at all. My blog is my favorite place to share with you all...

5. I have also been feeling a little lost in life. I want creativity and I feel like I have a lot of good ideas but I have TOO MANY ideas. Does that make sense? I was making a list of things I love and I see potential but I am overwhelmed and have no idea where to take things. I just know that I am happiest when I am creating something that will eventually go on to someone else. However my artistic skills are limited at the moment and while I can knit I would still consider myself a novice in this area. I am not sure what I am trying to get out of this confession but I just know that I am lost. 

What are you confessing this week?

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Confessions 12/21/16

1. I confess that I had part of this post drafted for a totally different post from last week but Kiya got  really sick on Friday and the post never got published. I was scared that she wasn't going to make it and admittedly got completely distracted. I am happy to report that she is doing just fine!

2. I confess that I have been adding artwork to Robert's lunches. This one from last week was my favorite response however. It is supposed to be a squinty face with tongue out. 

 3. I confess I got a real kick out of the UPS guy making a tower of our packages. It's like they are their own little Christmas tree!

 4. I confess I had a really great time last week at the play date. I loved getting to hang out with another mom and Kyra had such a good time playing with her girls! I hope we can continue to meet up and hang out because it was really wonderful to hang out with someone who gets that you will be interrupted at least twenty times a minute.

5. I confess that I have had this song on repeat since I heard it last week. I love it. 

So what are your confessions for the week?

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Thoughts and Confessions

Every time I sit down to read/comment on a blog I get distracted. I'm like that dog Dug from UP. Seriously I have no idea where my focus has gone but I need to get it together again. 

I am still working on my pictures/blog for the recap of my girl's weekend. I am the SLOWEST ever at recaps I swear. 

I really wanted to do Vlogmas but  (1) I can't find the charger to my camera.  (2)I don't trust my phone to make a good recording. (3) I worry that I am boring. 

After the awesomeness that was having my girls in to visit I have gone right back down the bummed out rabbit hole. Things are just tough right now and I feel like I am just treading water. I am not going to get super personal on here but I will tell you all that I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life. 

I think I might have made a mom friend at story time last week. We actually set up a play date for our kiddos so fingers crossed that I might have found someone with kids to hang out with. 

Blogging has been on my back burner lately but that isn't because I'm not writing posts or uninterested. It is honestly because I've been so busy trying to figure out life stuff. My blog is a passion project and thus I don't make money from it. I'm okay with that for the most part as I love coming here to write either way but I need to focus on things that also bring in the monetary stuff. 

I am ahead of the game on presents so far and I actually have all of the ones that I have bought wrapped and under the tree so I feel pretty awesome about that!

I confess I am so anxious about finishing my Reading Challenge on Goodreads. I have seven books left for the year and while this last month I have been a powerhouse of reading I am scared I won't finish! 

I confess that I learned more about the city I live in this past week than I have my entire life. Literally even in my own hometown. Apparently I am a hermit that needs to get out more. 

Face Masks are equal parts awesome and horrifying. 

Happy Wednesday Everyone. 

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Some Confessions

1. I woke up yesterday and it was 54 degrees. I AM SO HAPPY. GIVE ME THE COLD. 

2. I am behind on blogs again. I have no idea how this happens so quickly but man the time flies by and suddenly I am like 100 blogs behind. #guesswhatIwillbedoingthisweekend

3. My parents bought me a dishwasher. Seriously. Mine hasn't worked at the rental we live at for nearly two years and my landlord gives no fucks whatsoever. So as a present to me they bought it and installed it yesterday and I am SO HAPPY. #nomorehandwashing

4. I keep seeing all these posts on 17 things to do before 2017 and I thought I would join in but honestly....I cannot think of 17 things! Now the things that I have on my list are big things to me and they will take up huge chunks of time so that might be why I can't think of 17 things. 

5. I love Snapchat but if your whole snap is done in the Bee or Deer filter I am going to skip it. Seriously I cannot stand the voice changer. 

6. I received a new makeup palette for review but it is so pretty that I don't want to mess it up! I need to get on the ball and do a makeup look with it though because it is just so lovely that I am missing out by being hung up on my perfectionist nonsense. 

7. I may have threatened my computer with several death threats while trying to upload some songs to my phone. It was moving so slow and it is just miserable to wait twenty minutes for four songs to download. 

8. I ran into an old friend from High School the other day and she just ran up and gave me the biggest hug. It just warmed my heart and made my whole day so much better. 

9 During a cleaning spree I found a bunch of scratch off tickets that were winners. I cashed those babies in! Hello $18! 

10. I lost my favorite hair clip and now I am completely out of sorts. Does this happen to anyone else? Seriously I am so thrown off by it! 

 

Happy Humpday Everyone. 

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Musical Confessions

I confess that pretty much anything musical will get stuck in my head.....for years.

I confess that while driving the other day I suddenly remembered all the words to Walker Texas Ranger's opening theme. What is that? WHY?

I confess that because of setting it to a musical rhythm I can say the alphabet backwards without any trouble at all.

I confess that I was in several musicals in high school. I remember all my songs....and all my lines.

I confess that stage makeup and costumes always look slightly frightening....

Little Shop of Horrors Do-Wop Girl---I was Crystal.

I confess that I know the preamble due to School House Rock. Seriously I wish I would have set all my homework to music...I would have had no trouble remembering then.

I confess that musicals are what I prefer to watch while I'm sick. Seven Brides for Seven Brothers is my favorite sick day musical.

I confess that I actually got my first part in a musical without trying out. They had a girl quit and they needed a high soprano...so I got a phone call at home that night and they asked if I would be willing to participate. I was pretty flattered and thought Why Not? And thus my school musical career began. 

I confess that while writing this I was listening the the Little Shop of Horrors Soundtrack. I can still nail the soprano! 

Happy Humpday Everyone!

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