Meditation and Mindfulness

At the beginning of the year I decided that I would start carving out more time for myself. I have always enjoyed listening to relaxation audios and so I thought that I would go ahead and start a meditation routine. I wanted to start small and I wanted a guided meditation to help since my mind tends to wander and it usually wanders to stressful places. 

So I did a little research and downloaded a few free apps to see if it was for me. I was doing well and enjoying myself as I took 5-10 minutes for myself. Then of course my miscarriage happened. 

That week I was obviously a wreck and did not feel up to any sort of meditation but the following week I tried again. I will be honest and tell you that it was really hard at first. I cried and cried through each sessions but slowly it got better. It got easier. I was finding a calm inside myself. I was dealing with my grief in a different way but more importantly, for me at least, was that it gave me permission to simply stop thinking. I didn't have to think about it for 10 whole minutes. I could focus on my breathing, on my posture, on the feeling of being connected to the ground beneath me. That feeling of being on solid ground helped so much. 

Now I look forward to my daily meditations. I am more mindful of my emotions and am able to breathe through a great deal of my daily frustrations. It's a habit that I am happy to have formed. 


Do you meditate? Have you been considering starting a meditation routine? Let me know in the comments! 

Also I am doing a post on what meditation apps I have used and which ones were awesome and which ones just weren't for me!