2012 Tears and Cheers/ Also the A-Z Fun thing

Hello Everyone!

Sorry it has been awhile since my last post....the holidays always get me all wrapped up and I never get things done in a timely fashion. Which is why I've spent most of this morning cleaning up and trying to make my house liveable again. However I am back again today with my Tears and Cheers of 2012....a look back on the year and the events that took place. Also I am stealing the A-Z thing from over at Fueled and Aflame because it looked like fun and reminded me of the old Myspace days of taking silly quizzes and passing them along to your friends.

First off Tears of 2012:
--I attended 19 funerals this year of various family and friends. One being for my wonderful grandfather that was taken from us too soon and one for my great grandmother who had just celebrated her 90th birthday. It was a very hard year....I will miss each and every person that we lost...

--My aunt discovered that she has breast cancer. She went in and had a double mastectomy on the 21st. The good news is it was not as bad as they had thought and had not spread to her lymph nodes. She is actually doing really great, but it has still been difficult.


Now the Cheers of 2012!
---In May I married the love of my life! He's amazing and the wedding was wonderful. I am so lucky to have had all of my loved ones there....It was the first time in 30 years my Mom and her siblings had all been together with their parents....and unfortunately it was the last time as well. I will cherish that day for always.

-- I got to go to Harry Potter World on my Honeymoon. It was a complete surprise planned by my husband and it was so much fun! I am a total Harry Potter nerd and I have to say that I loved every minute of the trip! It was so awesome being surprised even if I normally hate surprises! 

-- In October we found out that we are going to be parents! Due June 19th 2013, our little one is growing strong and healthy! Last week we got to see the ultrasound and baby was kicking away! Too early to know the sex yet but it made everything so very real to see the image of our baby. Also we are only having one (whew!) which is good since twins run in the family! It is so exciting that our family is about to grow...I can't wait to meet the little one!


Now to the A-Z

A. Age: 28

B. Bed size: Queen... but I keep wishing for a King

C. Chore you hate: Dishes....ugh they never stop and my husband never does them and the dishwasher has not worked in months....

D. Dogs: 3- A crazy mutt named Brian, A Shih-Tzu/Yorkie named Kiya, and a Shepherd Mix named Luna

 
E. Essential start to your day: Putting in my Contacts...I hate my glasses and if I am wearing them it means I am sick and should not be bothered!

 
F. Favorite color: Purple

 
G. Gold or Silver: White gold

 
H. Height:5/2

I. Instruments you play: Piano

 
J. Job Title: Administrative Assistant

 
K. Kids: In progress 

 
L. Live: Kansas City, MO

 
M. Married: May 12, 2012

 
N. Nicknames: Kim, Kimmy Cole, Sistah-Girl

 
O. Overnight hospital stays: None

 
P. Pet peeve:Ridiculous lazy slang i.e. "Cray" for crazy, "Tots" for Totally "Adorbs" for Adorable and YOLO.........Don't say these things around me or I will ignore you...call me a snob if you like but that is just lazy and stupid...you sound like an idiot....

Q. Quote:"You are who you choose to be"- Iron Giant and
"Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."
— Margery Williams (The Velveteen Rabbit)

 
R. Righty or Lefty: Righty.

S. Siblings: 2 Younger brothers that are giants and at least a foot taller than me....

 
T. Time you wake up:  6:30am

 
U. University attended: MIZ----ZOU! University of Missouri baby...Go Tigers!!

 
V. Vegetables you dislike: Green Beans...ick. Also I am allergic to Carrots.

 
W. What makes you run late: Usually the dogs....or my attempt to get dishes and laundry done before work in the hopes that after work I can relax......hah

 
X. X-rays you've had: Shattered my ankle and actually had them ask me if they could keep the x-rays for class since my break was so unusual. I of course said yes and my ankle is now being studied at the university!

 
Y. Yummy food: Right now I love Mint Chip Ice cream and Chocolate Milk....yum.

 
Z. Zoo animal favorite:Probably the Elephants or the big cats

Okay so that is just a bit about me and the past year I have had...Hope everyone is safe this New Year's and I will see you all back here next year! I might actually try to post a New Year's Vlog!! 

Also Hello New Followers! I danced around the house when I saw that I had been followed! Huzzah!!

Christmas Linkup Vlog/ SNOW DAY!!!

Hi everyone!

Okay so I am attempting to post a VLOG today! Hope it goes as planned!

Joining up with Fueled and Aflame's Holiday Linkup in an attempt to get out there and make more bloggy friends!

So here it is...sorry that I'm completely spastic as I move around....I was a little nervous!

Also apologies for rambling....oh and the weird face I am making....

Baby Oh Baby

First off….I can hardly talk about what happened on Friday. I work for a school district and I can tell you…it broke our hearts and terrified us…our worst fear come to life I can tell you. I was glued to the broadcast all day while praying for those in Sandy Hook and counting my blessings that our children here were safe. As a mommy to be I can tell you I felt like my heart shattered at the news…I had to turn the TV off all weekend and avoid the news until Monday when I could handle it better. There are no words to make this easier…nothing to be said that can take away the families pain…but I know we are all grieving for this horrible loss.

 

Now on a lighter note I am going to talk about my own little blessing currently growing inside me.

Next week we are going to get to do an ultra sound!  I am so very excited! We were not going to do one until the end of next month…(omg that was driving me crazy! I haven’t seen even one little image of this kiddo!) but since I have continued to be violently ill every day and because multiples run in the family they decided to move up the ultra sound and check things out. 

 

I am so excited!

 

I mean dance around in my chair doing the happy dance excited. 

 

Next week I get to see my baby! (or babies) 

 

I cannot wait…an extra little Christmas present! It will be too early to know the sex but all I want is just a picture of the little one. Something to put in the baby book besides logging all the foods I can’t eat (that is just about everything) and finally having to wear the belly band with my work clothes because even the fat ones won’t zip now! (only the belly is getting bigger and I haven’t gained a pound yet…but trust me… the belly is growing!) 

 

Hopefully my husband will get to go, but if not my mom is all about going with me…she is ready to see a picture of the grandbaby as well!

Thoughtful Thursday

This week in Baby Bump Central:

There is a bump! I have now noticed a little firm bump developing! When I suck in my stomach (which if I slouch looks like I am already like five months pregnant…) there is a little bump that does not go in! Progress! I noticed it in the mirror this morning while attempting to find something to wear. I seriously need to get some clothes. I threw out all my fat clothes once I shrank out of them and now I wear the same stuff all the time because I am too lazy/cheap to go looking for new stuff. However it has come to the point where I need to get up and get new stuff. Time to hit the clearance racks!

Here’s a fun fact:

I hate Facebook. I log in about once a day and always leave within moments because it irritates me so badly. People say some genuinely stupid things. However I am considering linking the blog up to it because no one comments here and it is lonely. I have been trying to comment on other blogs to try and lure people back here with my hilarity and awesomeness but to no avail. No one is reading this thing but me and that makes me sad all day. So maybe it is time for some shameless promotion…I mean everyone loves to read about babies, books, movies and the daily failings of someone as clueless as me right? No I don’t run marathons, and I never post pictures (I want to but only the iPad in the house takes pictures and it is a pain in the butt sometimes…), but I promise I can write a blog that is worth its’ salt! So maybe it is time to bite the bullet and self-promote….ugh the thought makes me nauseas…

Additional:

My baby brother is home from college! Fun and games will now begin!

All my shopping is done! I only have two more presents to wrap and I am complete for the season! Huzzah!

I am starting my Christmas Cards today….I am only sending ones out to people that send me one. I am not going to go crazy and send one out to everyone I know like normal…postage is expensive…

I am starting to get over my sickness but still have a bit of a cough…now I am sure my poor husband will come down with it and his will be so severe that the world will be ending…perhaps he will be the cause of the panic next week 

Personally I don’t think the world is going to end, though if it does I imagine I will become like an Amazon Warrior woman with the baby strapped to me as I lead a band of misfits across the dangerous land in search of food and shelter….you may begin laughing now.

Well that’s it for me today, hope the week is finding you well!

 

 

Incubus of Viral Plague

That is me today. I have caught whatever it is that everyone has caught. I am a sickly mess and feel like crap and am seriously considering putting my dogs out on the curb for adoption if they don't stop fighting with one another and leave mommy alone to sleep and rest and attempt to feel better.

I would give anything to be able to breathe right now.

I had a post from yesterday that apparently I just saved as a draft and didn't schedule but it seems kind of pointless now as it was a yesterday post and not a today post so it will just sit in the archives it seems.

Now I am off to curl up on my couch with a hot tea and lwatch my feel good movies until I pass out. Unfortunately since I can't take any meds since I am pregnant I have no idea when the passing out will occur. I was up all night only getting an hour's worth of sleep before hearing my husband tossing his cookies and then being up again to make sure he was okay.

Now to the movies:

Love Actually
Devil Wears Prada
All the Christmas movies I own which actually have their own post so I won't list them here.

Hope you and yours are avoiding this sickness.

Take care.

(pic from google search)

Observations

Here is a little run down of observations that I have come across this week:

 

1.       Apparently Kate Middleton and I are both 12 weeks along in our pregnancies. Only she is currently in the hospital with severe morning sickness….I am just sitting at work and running to the bathroom every couple minutes to dry heave or enjoy that lovely yellow bile that I am now familiar with. I am not a duchess so like other people I have to just work through this ick. 

 

2.       Elf on the Shelf has taken over Pinterest and I hate him. The thing is creepy and will probably kill someone in their sleep. The moment I see him I leave Pinterest…which has helped curb my addiction nicely. 

 

3.       I miss food. Seriously I actually miss the days when I loved food, now the thought or sight of food makes me want to get violently sick. There is no limit to what I am adverse to; I have to choke down food just so the doctor doesn’t yell at me…oh yeah and I don’t die or something. 

 

4.       Hormones are just evil. I am up, I am down, and I am just plain mean sometimes. I really hate how horrid I can act when I let them get the best of me. I try to apologize a lot and am grateful that everyone gives me a bit of room since I am pregnant. 

 

5.       For some reason the baby websites always tell you what size the baby is by referring to fruit. I fear that I sound like an idiot when I say, “The baby is the size of a plum this week!” I mean…how many people eat plums all that often? 

 

6.       I am eager for a bump because right now I think I just look fat. I feel like I must explain to people as they see me “I’m pregnant! I promise that I am not just gaining weight and being lazy! I am in fact walking and trying to be as healthy as possible!” I realize no one but me cares but…well I CARE. Also the scale has not moved at all, my pants just don’t fit anymore because really there is growth going on there…but I just feel fat. 

 

7.       I have no clothes. I threw out all my fat clothes so that I wouldn’t be tempted to grow back into them. Now everything is uncomfortable and I have one pair of slacks and one pair of jeans that actually fit….the belly band helps sometimes but it is time for new tops and such. It’s time to do some shopping…

 

8.       I am avoiding shopping because I don’t want to look at what size I will have to buy. Ridiculous I know. 

 

9.       Never tell anyone baby names you kind of like. They will label the baby or else really hurt your feelings by saying something stupid. People can act like real idiots around pregnant ladies. Seriously I have a doctor that I pay to tell me what to do and what is safe. I read the books and I just try to use common sense. I do not need to know about your second cousin that was in labor for a whole weekend, or the woman who had a 14 pound baby. Seriously, shut up. 

 

10.   Nothing makes me happier lately than new episodes of my favorite shows showing up on Netflix. It is the highlight of my nights. That is just so sad. 

 

11. This video made me laugh so hard I almost peed. 

 

A Fresh Baked Batch

So I am seriously on the border line here. My sanity feels like it has slipped away and the threat of tears is at level ten. Also I managed to misspell almost every word so far in this blog as I type and that means that my pregnancy brain is in full effect. 

 

My hormones are out of control.

 

Not to be dramatic but I have never been this way before. Even in the really dark places of PMS that can and do happen I have never been this bi polar. 

 

Need an example? Yeah I got one. 

 

Last night we spend the night tossing and turning. I have been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. I normally sleep on my stomach but that is no longer possible while feeling comfortable, plus my irrational fear of crushing the baby. So since I cannot sleep the way I always have for like forever…I am tossing and miserable, which means my poor husband is also miserable. 

 

So he gently suggests at 3a.m. that he go and sleep on the couch and let me have the bed so that we both can get some rest. 

 

What was my response? I cry. Like huge sobbing ugly cry and accuse him of not wanting to be with me. 

 

The poor guy sighs and gives me a kiss and lies back down next to me for another 30 minutes of misery before I finally regain my reason and tell him that it is fine and he should go get some sleep. He didn’t wait for a second chance; the man practically sprinted from the room. We both managed to get a few hours’ sleep after that, but I will admit I continued to cry after he left for a good 15 minutes. 

 

This is just one sample of the crazy that I have become. I won’t even go into the whining or sniping that occurred while we tried to Christmas shop together yesterday. I think I was just exhausted after having shopped all day Saturday. Never shop twice in a weekend. You will regret it. I regret it. 

 

Also I thought it was a good idea to make brownies at 9pm last night. They were awesome but kept me up way past my bedtime which may have caused the spontaneous crying. Or else I really am just losing my mind. 

 

Did any of you other Momma’s have this issue? I have a few friends that tell me this is normal but maybe they are just trying to be nice to me since I have turned into a psycho? 

 

(Also I wrote this post on Sunday night and just now am getting it up...I forgot that I wrote it....awesome)