Hollow

I didn't know if I was going to write this post.

I wasn't even sure if I could.

However as usual writing is the only thing I can do when I can't express things out loud. Also I will probably be away from the blog for a while....I'm not sure how long....and I wanted you all to know why it is that I'm not around.

On Monday night....I lost the baby.

Everything was fine...and then it wasn't. It isn't.

I feel hollowed out inside. That is the only description that really describes it.

Emotionally I feel....numb. I have a lot of questions that I know will never be answered. I have a lot of pain that I know will never properly heal.

I'm not really ready to talk about everything yet. I'm sure that will be something that I will eventually have to write out in the future but right now....right now I can't.

Everything was fine...and then it wasn't.

And I will never know why.