Link up again

1. If calories didn't count, I would eat... lots and lots of bread/baked goods. Loaves of bread even…

2. On my Prom night... Oh Prom!!! I have a billion stories from this night! But to keep it short…the limo broke down on the side of the road, we showed up to prom in a white “abduction” van, a group of guys ran off the road into a corn field, and my date stole my heart and never gave it back!

3. When I go to the store, I always buy... bread and milk, a habit I formed when I went to the stores with my mum as a kid; I will always have bread and milk on the list!

4. Family functions typically... involve my older of the two brothers calling the other one a girl, me rolling on the floor laughing hysterically at something my brother or my mum said, endless amounts of food, and the hopeful wish that my own little family will be just as crazy!

5. I think my blog readers... are wonderful; they are small in number but big on the love!

6. I'd much rather be... somewhere, anywhere with a beach. I crave the ocean and yet here I am in the middle of the country….

7. I have an obsession with... color coding things. My mom is a tailor and I color code her push pins on the pincushion. I have done this since I was very small I believe. Also certain colors are allowed to be next to other ones because certain colors are dating….I think I might need therapy….

8. My work friends... are the reason I get up and do this every day. Without them making me laugh and being in general inappropriate, the days would all melt into one monotonous blur.

9. When I created my Facebook account... I made it my goal to be in over 100 groups. I made it. I was actually in a group called “I Heart Jigglypuff”. A billion points to you if you know what that is!

10. My least favorite word is... actually a word combo, “Half-Assed”; my mom was constantly telling me as a teen not to do whatever chore I was doing, “half-assed”.

11. I really don't remember... where all the stuff in my house came from…I have no idea how I managed to acquire so much junk!  

12. Justin Bieber... makes me want to bash my head in. His songs are worse than “The song that never ends” and he needs to put his shirt back on. 


Too late to the linkup but what the hell, here it is anyway! Proper post tomorrow. Night all. 

In which I could not agree more!!!

So I was actually working on a different post but then I ran across a post today from a fellow blogger and it demands my attention much more than what I was working on.

Today Erin over at She's a big star posted a blog about something that is very near and dear to my heart. In fact it is something that has made me consider just giving up the blog world and continuing to write in my own personal space over on 750words.com instead. I still write there every day but a blog is so nice to put out there for others to see. For me blogging has been a way to share my journey and while sometimes I don't have much to say, this blog is still for me to come to when I need it. It's an outlet first and foremost for me.

Today on THIS post Erin goes into detail of the things that are really irritating about the blogging world today. I think she has hit the nail on the head with these things, and I even have a few more little things that I would like to add that really bug me too.

1) Instagram/Twitter bandits- yeah okay, I don't do instagram. I tried but it wants to link to my facebook and honestly...I don't think that everyone on my facebook really needs to see what I am eating, wearing, or doing all the damn time. You read a blog by choice but I feel like instagram floods my newsfeed with things that just really don't matter to me. I'm into reading about people and I do love to see the photos on the blogs, but seriously why do I need to overkill my family with junk they already know?? Aside from that I hate the "book" anyhow. I keep it for the friends and family that are overseas, I do not need it to follow blogs. Twitter...ah twitter. Stupid. It is just damn lazy stupid. Enough said there.

2) The lack of actual content- It has gotten to the point where some of the blogs I follow don't actually WRITE. Instead it is like reading a Google ad for someone's blog, clothes, upcoming race....there is not actually any substance to the blog anymore. It is all "Oh my gosh look at my friends and their blogs!" but those "friends" paid to be in that post....what happened to just mentioning someone because you really enjoyed what they wrote that day? Or giving the love away....for free? Just to be kind? Just to be...I dunno...a friend?

3) Exclusion/Cliques- You cannot tell me there are not blogging cliques. You cannot tell me that there are the "cool" ones and the not so cool. What sucks is that the "cool" ones expect the less cool to pay them to make them cool....um...seriously??


Okay so this might seem a little like a rant but honestly....things have gotten a little out of control and it is enough to make a new blogger feel completely unwelcome and miserable. It is enough to actually put someone off writing...and that is not right.

So I will go ahead and say this now, you don't have to follow me, but if you choose to read me that is great. If you have a great post that I see and like, I will link it, no charge! If you want someone to email and talk about random junk, I am always available.

 I write here because I love to write. I put up posts about my random life just because I want to, most of my family and friends don't even know it is here, it is just a place for me to come and put my thoughts into words.

So maybe no one will read this, but if someone does I hope they check out Erin's blog. I hope that if they are just starting to blog they realize that it doesn't have to be all about that junk...that blogs were created for writing, so go ahead and write!!!!

So What Wednesday 3/20/13

Today is going to be a short post since I am not feeling all that great with the weather change. So here are my "So What?"s for the day!

-So what if my breakfast consisted of hot cocoa and 2 donuts? It was six am and I was starving!

- So what if the only real thing I accomplished on my to do list was this blog post and my daily word count?

- So what if I stayed up too late last night on Pinterest? I spent at least an hour laughing my head off.

- So what if I forgot to take my "Belly Shot" for today for week 27? I can totally do it tomorrow or Friday...all I know is my belly is growing fast!

- So what if the moment I get home I switch to pajama pants and big t shirts? All I feel is huge lately and I just want to be comfy, any pressure on my belly makes the kiddo kick like crazy!


So that is the post for the day, I will have something much more substantial tomorrow or Friday if this headache eases up! Now just crossing my fingers that we don't get snow and it is just rain. I am so ready for SPRING!!!

Movin' to Bloglovin'

Here I am!!

Baby Update

How Much Longer: 14 weeks

Baby Size: Large head of cabbage....It's so weird they compare it too food items...my husband doesn't quite get it :P

Maternity Clothes: Mixing both non and maternity shirts, and wearing either leggings or my one pair of maternity jeans...and bras....oh my god I have porn star boobs....I am up to a double E...

Stretch marks: Little white ones I've had since forever....weight gain and loss takes a toll

Weight gain:  11 lbs

Sleep: Off and on...some nights are fine and others are horrid. Baby kicks the most right at bed time

Best Moment of the Week: Seeing her kick the remote control on my belly

Movement: Lots more movement now and every which way

Food Cravings:Only for chocolate milk as per usual though meat is particularly popular lately

Gender: GIRL!  

Belly Button in or out: In  

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Not so much lately but she does like to move up my rib cage and make it hard to breathe

Wedding ring on or off: On. 

What I miss:  The occasional drink, not getting winded going up the stairs

What I am looking forward to:I actually had a dream about her being in the house the other night. Like me actually holding my baby girl....It's a moment that I am longing for.

Nursery: As stated previously last week, I'm still not into it yet....

Emotions: Happy and hormonal as well. I tear up a lot, but still overwhelmingly happy! 

Me VS Monday

Monday Morning was hell, just plain hell. 

It started just okay, the night before had not been all that great because I have a hell hound living with me. Check out what my horrible dog did while we had dinner at my parents’ house on Sunday…

 See? She is evil. 

Somehow she managed to escape her kennel, destroy a box in the garage, destroy a bale of cotton (yes I have a bale of cotton in my garage), and then managed to get her way into the house and tore the carpet off the stairs for the second time in 6 months. Luckily she didn’t get all the way upstairs because if she had eaten my couch….well it would not have been pretty. 

So my wonderful husband decided that now this particular pup is going to be an outside dog when we are at work. He rigged up a nice run for her in the back yard with some heavy duty chain. It looked nice and she would have plenty of room. My parents had a spare dog house and so she was going to be all set up, and safely out of my house. 

This morning I put her out while I was trying to get ready for work. She somehow managed to break the chain (bent it straight actually) and free herself from one of the stakes in the ground. She then decided to yank all the nearby trees down into the yard, and also managed to stretch the chain so that she could get all the way from the back yard to the front door where she decided to torment the other dogs by barking at the window. All of this happened in the span of about twenty minutes. She really is a hell hound. 

So finally I get her back in the kennel, reinforce it with some heavy duty carabineer clips, and try to get ready, but by now I am already emotionally shot after not having slept well. (My back is aching and the baby was really active all night, plus I hate stupid daylight savings) So I am near tears over the whole thing, thinking that this particular pup may be in need of a different home because I cannot give her the attention that apparently she needs since I am pregnant and she is a pretty big dog, I am terrified of her knocking me down the stairs. However I feel horribly guilty even thinking that since the poor thing was dumped, starving to death, out at my parents’ house and I took her in because I felt so bad for her. Honestly she is a real sweet dog, just very much a puppy. It’s going to take some time to get her through this stage…I just hope my house survives it. 

I finally leave the house and text work to let them know I will be late. I am starving by now and my husband suggested I just pick something up so I head to a certain common eating establishment to pick up breakfast. I decide that what I really need is a little caffeine. Call me a bad mom if you want to but I wanted just a little coffee. So I order a small iced mocha, it was my favorite treat before getting pregnant and I just needed a pick me up and feel better. 

So I order and once my stuff arrives the girl at the window says this, “Um you know pregnant women aren’t supposed to have coffee right?” 

I will say I am not proud of my obviously hormonal response but here is what I said, “Um are you a doctor? No you work at (insert name here). Please just take my money and give me my damn coffee.” 

Not real nice, and it was said in my very meanest and snarkiest voice. Again I am not proud, but damn my morning has sucked and then some person has the nerve to say something like this to me. My own doctor told me that a little caffeine was just fine, so long as I am not downing a soft drink an hour. Plus my own mom drank coffee throughout her pregnancies and we all were fine.  

Anyhow I finally make it in to work, my wonderful coworkers helped me laugh it off and the day started to get better. Also my outfit was cute, my mom bought me two new maternity tops over the weekend and I felt really cute and pregnant in them and despite my little fit of tears my mascara held up and I still looked put together even if I didn’t  feel very put together. It’s the little things that you have to appreciate! 

Hope everyone else had a better Monday than me! Here's to a happier Tuesday!

Link Up Love

Just a quick post this morning, but I wanted to do a quick thank you for all those that made their way over from Holly's blog from yesterday's linkup!

I found so many new blogs yesterday and spent a huge part of my lunch at work subscribing and stalking reading! I was so happy to have a few comments on my own blog and I tried to respond to everyone but if I missed you I will get to it this weekend!

Hope everyone is having a great Saturday morning, I'm off to finish watching a re run of Amazing Race and then off to shop...ugh. There will be a whole post on the shopping stuff and just what I am shopping for as well!

Big hugs to everyone!

Finish it link up!

I am linking up with Holly and Jake for the "Finish the sentence... Linkup."

1. People always tell me... That I have great hair.

2. In the movie based on my life... it has a happy ending.

3. Typically, I end up regretting... not being braver.

4. I always ask to leave off the... condiments on anything for my husband, tomatoes for me.

5. Kim and Kanye really... don’t factor into my life at all.

6. My Parents always reminded me... to be kind and do what you know is right, also to change the laundry.

7. Every single day I... tell my husband, my parents, and my brothers that I love them.  

8. This one time in College... we stayed up all night playing Cranium and then watched my guinea pig give birth to three baby guinea pigs.

9. My grossest habit is... biting my nails.

10. My latest white lie was... “I’m Fine”.

11. I know all the words to... every Disney cartoon movie. (This is not a joke)

12. When I grow up... I want to be an author.

13. Sexy time occurs... enough that there is a baby on the way! :P

14. I will never, ever... bungee jump.

15. I think it's hilarious... and necessary to watch this video when you are having a bad day! (Pinwheel!)

Guilt

Feeling like a dead beat mom….

 

Here lately I have felt like a pretty bad mommy to be. 

 

I keep reading about others that are busy get nurseries ready, deciding names, working on the registry…etc. 

 

I have little to no desire to do these things. 

 

I also feel horrible about having no desire to do them. 

 

The thought of the nursery is rather put on hold since I don’t know what theme to go with and also I have been offered a new crib and such by my mom but it will be a while before they are purchased. I have no idea on colors or any of that though…the only sort of “theme” that we have is perhaps Disney…and that was purely by accident…and a collection of stuffed animals. 

 

Deciding names has been particularly troublesome. Picking out boy’s names was something my husband seemed much more interested in…though admittedly he came up with some really “interesting” ones. Now that we are having a girl it seems like he expects me to come up with it, and I do have a name that I am partial to but that doesn’t mean I don’t want his input. I do want her name to start with a “K” but that is really the only thing I have as a stipulation. It leaves things wide open…and perhaps that is the problem. Also I worry that I will pick a name and then see her and it won’t fit…then you are back to square one anyway! Naming your child is something that is important after all, trust me I work in an educational system, I see names all day long that make me cringe. Names matter and I suppose that is why I am avoiding the whole thing. 

 

Working on the registry is just that…work. I haven’t been around a baby since I was a teen and babysitting. I remember a few things from then and a few things from when my own brothers were little but other than that I know next to nothing. Trying to pick out bottles, strollers, and other things has been overwhelming. I have recruited ideas from other mom’s via Facebook but all in all I feel like I’m a mess. Plus I don’t want to register for things I will never use; I have enough clutter in my life without going bonkers over baby “Must-Haves”. However the deadline for the baby shower is approaching and thus I need to register. All it does is remind me of the wedding registry which I found just as overwhelming and just as miserable. I hate asking anyone for anything and in all honesty I feel like I have too much already. 

 

I realize there must be other moms out there that feel the same way and I try to remind myself that it will come along in its own time. I know that I will do my very best to be the greatest mom ever….but it will come at a learning curve and unfortunately no one can really fully prepare you for what is in store once you have a baby. Each child is different, each family is different, and I will make mistakes along the way. Still I have the mommy guilt, I am so excited about the baby…but all the things that go with it seem to be more than I can handle at the moment. 

 

Right now I just want her to kick so my husband can feel her and not hold still each time he puts his hand on my belly. I want my sanity back as well as my organized mind. I do not appreciate forgetting what I am doing midway through or forgetting all together to do something. Feeling this way makes me feel guilty as well…but I guess that just comes with the territory.

Weekend Tidbits

Some Randoms from my weekend!

1) My mom's birthday was on Sunday! We all got together and bought her a Kitchen Aid Mixer. She was really excited as she has wanted one for a long time! Birthday present success!

2) As a surprise my husband and I went and picked up my youngest brother from college so that he could be home for my mom's birthday. She was really excited and I think she enjoyed that even more than the present! Plus my little brother needed a break from all the pressures of school. He is a workaholic and a worrier, so he needed the break!

3) We saw a pet monkey at the pet store. The guy had her in his hoodie and was picking up monkey biscuits for her. It was really strange...I mean where does one get a pet monkey here in Missouri? Also how many monkeys are there that the store actually carries a bin of monkey biscuits? RANDOM. I so wish I would have had my camera there to snap a photo!

4) I got some new clothes from Target! We got to go to a different Target than our normal one and they had some really cute clothes! I bought a couple tops and a dress, maternity and plus size. It was strange being back in the plus size section...I hadn't been there since way before the wedding....it was a little disheartening until my husband reminded me that the only reason that I have to shop there is because I am six months pregnant, and that this is not permanent. I sometimes forget that I am gaining more than just weight, I am gaining a whole new member of our family. It put things into perspective and kept the shopping from turning into a really horrible experience. Check out this morning's outfit!


Well that is the weekend highlights, hope everyone else's was good too! Anyone else see any monkeys???